Monday, January 17, 2011

"Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill."

So. I had planned on getting on here and bitching about the homework that I have been procrastinating and putting off saving. Saving the best for last, you know?

[You ever had to open your closet and draw it for a class? I bs-ed the clothes, but the shoes? I've been collecting them for years. It's going to take forfuckingever to draw.]

But as I was procrastinating like a BEAST taking a short break from my studies, I came across an eating disorder blog.

This is just something that bothers me. It got so much worse as I went through and read the supporting comments. 

I know how it feels to not want to eat. While my issues don't stem from wanting to lose weight, whenever I get stressed or upset, I stop eating. Earlier last year, I went through a rough breakup and I didn't eat for a week. I couldn't do it. Every time I thought of food, I just wanted to vomit. The only reason I drank water was because I had cried so much that I was dehydrated [not my best moments.].  Even now, most days I only eat two meals; some days I only have one.

That being said, I will never ever be an advocate for the way I eat or more extreme eating disorders. It just makes me sick reading about people purging or limiting themselves to less than 500 calories a day or things like that. It just kills you! 

And it's definitely not a reliable diet method. As soon as you eat, which you will eventually, you'll just balloon up again! Trust me on this one! After spring semester 2010, my eating habits were so horrid that I lost 15 lbs without doing a thing. By now, I've gained them all back. The only thing is that I lost muscle mass, and I gained fat.

Also, loss of energy. I couldn't do anything. Just getting through a day of school was like running a marathon. I had just enough energy to get home and lay on the couch until it was time to go to bed.

Pro-Ana is the theme that runs through these sites, and it's just horrid. I don't see them as any better than pro-suicide websites.

It's just...ugh.

Whoo. Three cheers for rantage.

Quote of the day:

[On My Fair Wedding with David Tutera's Alice in Wonderland episode]

Bride - I would like to get little people dressed up like the white rabbit and the door mouse to carry my train.

David - Little...people...

Bride - Yes! Little people!

David - Oh, that is so wrong....

May the force be with y'all.


theTsaritsa said...

Pro-ana is definitely pro-suicide, I like the way you put that. I've had my own issues with food over the years, but I condemn those websites because they cause a lot of problems for impressionable young girls with an otherwise good sense of self.

Nicole Jeannette said...

Pro-ana sites make me so sad :/ It's a lie that being thin makes you beautiful.

Kate said...

I've seen a website like that before. My friend was doing a research paper on eating disorders and showed it to me. It was so sad and disgusting. The saddest thing was she was like "Not all of these are bad, some of them are really helpful!" And none of them were. I tried to tell her this but she wouldn't listen and got mad. I just don't understand how people think it's okay to do those things to themselves.