Saturday, January 22, 2011

"You are my sweetest downfall; I loved you first, I loved you first."

Ever have a song that just hits you emotionally? Oh man, this one does. It's such a pretty song. And some music demands that you listen to it turned up loud with headphones on. This is one of those. Same with In Your Atmosphere by John Mayer and The Call by Regina Spektor. They just mellow me out completely.

A lot of emotional stress lately. Listening to this music is good for me. After my never ceasing mantra of "I'm fine; I'm not angry about it anymore!", I almost had myself convinced that I wasn't still upset and hurt. Oddly enough, it took an apology to bring that all crashing back to me. It also provided a new level of closure that I needed in order to keep moving forward.

It's just a lot about which to think.

On the other hand, the recently happenings only served to confirm my adoration of Q. He really is a good guy. Not many people would have the patience to wait out my times where I am so confused that I just want to crawl in a dark hole and avoid everything. Not many people at all.

May the force be with y'all.


theTsaritsa said...

I have definitely had songs that hit me in such a way, and seemed to correlate to whatever drama was going on in my life.

Lex said...

LOOOVE Regina!

Kate said...

I loooove that song! It's one of my all time favorites. And that's really awesome that you have someone like that in your life. There's not many people, especially young people, that can be patient like that.